Mary

Today has been a day for thinking. Travis has a final due tomorrow and so I have been cleaning the house trying to stay out of his hair! Cleaning always makes me think of this or that, and if I'm cleaning when in a bad mood - WATCH OUT - because its easy for all of that thinking to add fuel to the fire! But most of the time I'm just thinking about life, my life, our life, what life means, and what God is doing or will do. Its funny how God will talk to you through the most mundane tasks.

Anyway, so today I was cleaning and I was thinking. There has been so much going on and changing lately it has been hard to do much of either. But somehow today my thoughts took me back -- WAY back. When I was in high school on our youth's group way down to church camp our youth leader had us find "life verses" that felt like what God was calling us to. I picked Colossians 3:16 "let the word of God dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish each other with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts."

To this day this verse really speaks to me, but I have always found this verse to be a little odd as a "life verse" choice. I mean when you think about it there are so many good choices out there "run the race/keep the faith", "faith without works is dead" "to live is Christ to die is gain." Those are really hard core verses, and when I compare my verse its easy to think of mine as a litter inferior to other verses talking about laying your life down for Jesus, or talking about how important it is to live out your life of faith. But as God brought this to my mind -- I realize why this verse speaks so loudly to me. At it's very core, my soul longs to worship God. To praise him with songs and hymns, to sing out to him, and to have him dwell in me richly.

I realize now that I spend so much time being a Martha (or more accurately trying to be a Martha) because Christian society praises that quality in women, but if I'm honest my soul longs to be Mary. And I think that's what God wanted me to realize tonight: for a little while at least, its time to be Mary.

Tonight you will find me at the feet of Jesus.